In Your Eyes

[tattooedsiren]

Title: In Your Eyes
Ships: Zac/Nikki
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Do I really need to say that I'm not these people, I don't know these people, and everything within is a work of fiction? Didn't think so.
Summary: When you looked into my eyes, I felt like you were the only one who saw the real me. You didn’t see who I could be, you didn’t see who you wanted me to be, you saw me, exactly as I am.
Authors Notes: In my mind this is set in a year or two from now. Inspired by In Her Eyes by Josh Groban. A big thankyou to everyone who read and reviewed my first attempt at Zac/Nikki. This is for you guys. Enjoy!


Little Darling,

The eyes are the windows to the soul.

How many times have I heard that expression? And never once did I actually get it. Until you.

When you looked into my eyes, I felt like you were the only one who saw the real me. You didn’t see who I could be, you didn’t see who you wanted me to be, you saw me, exactly as I am.

The truth is, despite all the fame and the wealth and the fangirls (yes, I rolled my eyes writing that), no one really knows who I am. I’m like this image, almost holographic for all the depth people perceive in me. But you, ever since the first moment we met, you saw the truth in me, good and bad, and I think you were the first to do so.

I’ve been so many people in my short life. Son. Brother. Idol. Co-worker. Gimmick. Commodity. But you were the only person who made me feel like a man.

The truth is, I’m just an ordinary guy. I have average talent and above average looks. I’m not a hero. I’m not an angel. I’m just a man. A man who is in love with you.

There I said it (okay, wrote it, but that doesn’t lessen the impact, does it?). I’m in love with you. And if I know you as well as I think I do, right now you are either trying not to cry or shaking your head in disbelief.

In case it’s the latter, let me elaborate.

I never imagined meeting someone like you. You are confident but not arrogant. Beautiful but not flashy. Real but not boring. You are everything I didn’t know I needed. I’ve never felt so instantly connected to someone before. You are the only one I listen to – your advice and comments and ideas are the only truth I need. You make me a stronger person.

So there it is. I’ve finally admitted it to you. My heart is pounding in my chest and I wouldn’t be surprised if you couldn’t read my handwriting from the way my hands are shaking.

I wanted to tell you in person, but I knew that the words would come out all wrong. Or worse, I would give you my soul, and see your expression immediately become pained as you quickly calculated how to tell me you didn’t return my feelings without hurting me.

So, I guess this letter could be one of two things. It could be a sweet letter you got from your best friend, which you keep buried in your desk, maybe reading it once every few years and smiling for the poor boy you couldn’t love. Or it could be the first love letter from your best friend, soul mate and future husband. It’s up to you.

Just know that, no matter what happens, I will always be thankful for you. In your eyes, I saw my true self. In your eyes, I found the woman I was meant to love.

All my love,

Z


***


My dearest Zac,

When I got your letter, the first thing I wanted to do was jump on a plane to LA. But I also wanted to send you something as beautiful as you sent me.

You are the sweetest, most amazing man I know. I hate that Disney and your ex and the industry make you doubt yourself. You are so much better than all of them. Remember that. When you get lost in this cartoon land of mystery, and your own reflection doesn’t make sense any more, remember me, picture my face in your mind, and I promise the world will make sense again.

I have to say that your letter came as quite a surprise. Every time we see each other and I look into your eyes I see this incredible man who is so generous and real and exquisite. But then, a few days later when you have to go back to LA or I have to go back to NY, my heart breaks at the idea of not seeing you again. I could never have hoped that you might feel the same way I do.

I never told you this, but I was so anxious about working with you. I can admit now that I had some pre-conceived notions of you, not all of them good, and I’m so sorry for that. I could never have anticipated that not only would you turn out to be my best friend, but so much more.

So yes, I guess what I’m trying to say, is that I love you too.

I can’t believe I actually said it (wrote it, whatever). Sometimes I think I loved you from the moment we met. I worried that maybe it was a trick of the mind, that I was getting too into my character when falling for you. But as the months passed, and shooting was over and we kept talking and hanging out, I still felt the same and I knew it was real.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Now that I’ve admitted it I can’t seem to stop writing it. I understand exactly how you felt when writing your letter – I think my heart might explode in my chest from how fast it’s beating.

It occurs to me at this point that I should probably start worrying about so many things – how this will work when we live on opposite sides of the country, how this will negatively impact your career, that maybe its not as real as I think it is. But I can’t worry about all that now. All I can do is feel light-headed and madly in love.

I want to write more, but I think you have rendered me speechless. Shocking, I know, but if anyone could do it, it’s you.

I love you.

Yours for always,

NikkiB


PS. Open your front door

Comments

[sellthelie.livejournal.com]

*many happy sighs*

So lovely, just gorgeous. ♥

[(Anonymous)]

miss tattooedsiren ... this was gobsmackingly beautiful!!!! and i felt every word they wrote to each other *sob and a cheer if that makes sense*

from now on, i'm reading ALL your fic's coz this was just too damn WIN for words! i hope they kinda express it soon with speculation who nikki's bf is at the moment

i'm anon by the way, kinda leave random comments on sgh's page, irish's, saint's, kimmie's ... and now yours!

thank you for this ... it's really made my night, esp after coming back from youtube watching tooooo many zikki vid's!

onwards and upwards missie ... you've got some fantastic fic's to pen for us! :D

[(Anonymous)]

ps ... open your front door .... got me really excited!!!

can't wait to read more :o)

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for commenting. Glad you enjoyed it. :O)

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun. *squishes*

[daydreamer22688.livejournal.com]

Awesome!

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :O)

[zacelover01.livejournal.com]

Ohmygod.
I love this sooooooooooooooooo much ;]
Is this a chapter fic or what?
Cuz I want more!

Update soonity ;]

Sarah
xoxo

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. At this stage its just a one-shot. I dont have any current plans to write more in this fic - but I am writing more Zikki, so I hope you will check that out. :O)

Cute icon!

[harry-n-ginny.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful!! I just don't know what else to say it really truly was amazing and I hope you continue writing Zikki :)

[lnalvgd.livejournal.com]

*pokes in just for a moment*

I have to know where you got that icon and if you happen to know where the footage may be for how it was made?

I've never seen it before and am very curious about it!

Thanks!

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

The icon is by noway_icons. Its from a Canadian music show during Hairspray promotions. Zac was asked if he had to date someone from the cast who would it be and he said Nikki. Then they got dared to kiss and it turned into a bit of a make-out session. Check it out on youtube (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlhgP0FHn1E).

[harry-n-ginny.livejournal.com]

tattooedsiren is right ;)

[rosa-cotton.livejournal.com]

Thsi was so beautiful. Love the idea of Zac and Nikki writing each other love letters.

Thank you for this delightful read. Hope you will write more. :D

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. It actually wasnt originally intended to be letters - I started writing it as a Zac PoV fic but then I stumbled upon the idea of making it a letter - meaning we got to see Nikki reply. :O)

[jewel-2.livejournal.com]

Loved it,the love letters were funny and sweet at the same time. I love the ending of Zac's letter: Or it could be the first love letter from your best friend, soul mate and future husband. It’s up to you.". That is sweet that he thinks of a future with them married. I hope this isn't a one shot, i want to know what happens next. Loved it.

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. I was worried the 'future husband' bit might be a bit much but people seem to like it. :O)

Afraid to say that at this stage it is just a one-shot. I'll never rule out writing a sequel but for right now this is it. But there are other Zikki fics on the way. :O)

[kingslee.livejournal.com]

Beautifully written. I love the idea of them confessing their feelings through letters.

I especially loved this line:

Or it could be the first love letter from your best friend, soul mate and future husband. It’s up to you.

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. Glad you enjoyed it. :O)

[azzy-michelle.livejournal.com]

*tear* So very beautiful! Good job!

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks!! :O)

[lnalvgd.livejournal.com]

I didn't read the first one, but this is very pretty and sweet and I really like how you've written it with letters.

Why can't the tall, gorgeous guys go for the short, fat, but beautiful girls? I've always wanted to know that???

*uses only icon that has Nikki and Zac in it*

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much hun. I know a lot of people dont read RPF so I am so thrilled you even took a chance on reading, and ever more happy that you liked it.

I want to know too. Maybe Zac will be the first. ;O)

♥

[wyntertwilight.livejournal.com]

This was so beautiful! Seriously, it made me feel all warm and fluffy inside, it was just gorgeous. I loved that Zac said Nikki made him a better person, and I love that she said she loved him from the first moment. The letters were just lovely.

And the P.S. was awesome. Does that mean a sequel? :-D

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. I'm so glad you enjoyed it. :O)

Afraid there is no plan for a sequel right now. I wanted to add a third part about Zac opening the door to see Nikki standing there, but I figured a) the fic was better just being about the letters, and b) peoples imagination about what happens after he opened the door are much better than anything I could write. :O)

[alexi-lupin.livejournal.com]

AWWW. They're both so adorable. =D

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

OMG you read this. *squishes* Thanks so much. I wrote another Z/N fic if you want to check it out - I actually like the first one better, despite it being shorter. ♥

[alexi-lupin.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've been pretty MIA as far as the flist goes, but I had a squizz and there you were. =D

I love Hairspray! I rented it over the holidays and it was so cool! Catchy and boppy and just so much fun! =D

[(Anonymous)]

hey tatt, it's anon

was surfing the net to read zikki fic's and i came across your comment on irish's page ... i don't have the actual link to the last two pics but if you type in hairspray cast at cca awards it'll bring up all the related vid's to it, then you'll be sure to find it

also look up and type in nikki blonsky which'll feature her in interviews, awards, hairspray moviet etc ... which'll then lead you to zac efron etc

but all the vid's of nikki are awesome!!! we've got some creative fans out there and you'll also see some zikki authors posting vids too eg daydreamer, rhythmhearts, saintseducing etc

watch, enjoy and be amazed by the zikki love!!! anon :D

[(Anonymous)]

sorry! i meant on youtube you'll find these vid's

anon :0)


ps can't wait to read more of your fics!

[kimmysuefics.livejournal.com]

Very cute, loved their written confessions!

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much. :O)

[jessica3311.livejournal.com]

Romantic love letters....sigh....loved it!

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

I wish someone would send me a letter like that. :O)

I dont think I've ever said but I love your icon.

[optimistic4ever.livejournal.com]

This was just beautifully written. Wow! You did such an amazing job capturing their voices. The fear in Zac's letter of not being sure of how she felt about him. He took a giant leap, and he is going to find out if he is going to fall or fly! He put himself out there to either be accepted or shot down, and that usually isn't something a guy does first. He waits for the girl to let her feelings be known before he takes a chance.

Then in Nikki's letter, you got the excitement of the words coming from her heart and mind on to the paper as she is writing. She never thought that Zac could ever feel the same way about her that she felt about him, so she wasn't going to be the one to put her heart on the line first. Zac did after all live across the country, and goodbyes were hard to say, not knowing if they would ever stay in touch or not. So when Zac finally did let his feelings be known, she knew that their goodbyes would never be final.

I adored the fact that in the letters to one another once they said "I love you", neither could stop saying it. They both had similar reactions (their racing heartbeats) after admitting their feelings. It was love for both of them, and when you ended Nikki's letter with the "PS. Open your front door", I just got a huge smile on my face. The whole thing was wonderful, and maybe someday, something this magical can happen between them. That would be awesome!

Great job on this little fic. What an original idea, and you did such a wonderful job with it.

[tattooedsiren.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for the lovely comment. So glad you enjoyed it. :O)